Thank youDelirious thoughtsMy memory is my enemyScream, scream at meNot place to findWhere I can beMoment of death, moment of lifeThis place isn't realI'm too broken to fightLie, lie to meLie to me one more timeMade your decisionHelp me to breatheGive me your handAnd then break me againMinutes of happinessMinutes of sorrowLife full of emptinessAnd time that we borrowPushed you awayThen whisper your nameTaking new stepsNo time for regretsI'm moving from youI'm moving for goodI'm saving myselfMy soul and my heartI'm not sure in my futureNot sure in my lifeThank you for givingThank you for livingThank you for loving even not meI'm not that one what you wanted to seeBut thank you for being heart of my lifeYou made me better, you showed me the light
RuinsTime to time I do believeTime to time I start to liveBut she has her own dreamsHer own sins, her own fearsDon't belong to meDon't lie, don't pretendIt's okI understandI needed timeYou gave it to meBut it wasn't mineAnd then you leftMisunderstood but well playedFooled but still aliveAll the pain that I gainedMade me fall apartWe tried, we tried so hardTo live, to share, to understandBut what a failRuins that's what I seeRuins that what's left to meForever gone, forever pain
Not a writerToday I took my pencilAnd started to thinkNow what should I write about?Love?I'm sick of itDeath?Too boring to readFeelings?I'm done with itI lie on the floor and start to singSomething so sad and something so sweetNo need to write it downIt's everythingBut nothing aboutMelody is quite simpleAs it comes from the heartYou might think I'm tearfulBut no, I am notToo many reasons why I'm hereToo many questions unrelieved So many people should just leaveAway, get vanished, disappearI'm still holding pencil in my handNot writing, not trying to understandBut I'm singing to feel something newSomething weird, something so goodI'm not a writer and I don't know how to writethough all my life is one big poem, one big fightBut I'm still singingThis melody in meAnd it sounds so perfectlyForgive me pleaseForgive me for thisBut I'm not a writerJust one big dreamer...
I have no eyesBroken wingsI have no eyesSomething insideWants to crySo desperatelyI'm craving for the lightBut not chance to see itI have no eyesDeepest desireCutting my heartIt's a wrong feelingIt has no startMy hands are bleedingBut I don't know whyIt hurts so muchLiving without eyesMy whole lifeI'm living in the darkNo chance to see saving lightI wanted to be strongI wanted to fightBut I was dead wrongMy life is the nightFor meit's realIt's not a lieI have no eyes
Not fineTonight I said myself, I'm fineI looked into the mirror and tried to smileLooks good? Still repeating I am fineI'm going out tonightI'm going out and again I feel fineDriving my car, driving so fastInto the night, leaving my pastSomehow I can hear voice in my headHe's saying - take careOh no, forget itI'm having fun tonightAnd I push the pedal, driving faster and fasterAnd again I can hear a voiceIt screams in my head,I can't ignoreBut hell no, I'm not gonna stopTill car will pull over because of no gasAnd I will get sober to see breaking dawnSunlight slowly touches meAs I am lying somewhere on the beachStill hearing your screamsIt hurts, it hurts so muchAnd no, I don't feel fineI can't pretendI lied, no I'm not fineIt feels like I've diedCan't stop asking myself whyWhy?It screams in my mindIt hurts insideAnd noI don't feel fine
I am sorryI am sorryForgive meI will repeat these words thousands timesJust say you love meAnd I will do anythingI am sorryForgive me pleaseI made mistakes and no chance to fix itBut your smile can heal meIf you could just say that you love meIt would change everythingI am sorry, so sorryCan you forgive me please?I know I don't deserve this, but stillYou know I love youWish I could say the same that you love meYou never said I'm sorry because you haven't done anything wrongIt's meI've destroyed our loveSo I'm saying once againI'm singing a song for youStanding at the pouring rainI am sorryForgive meBut nothing there I can changeSo I will leaveOnly paper with song and guitar will remind youAbout someone who was making too many mistakesAbout someone who already has goneStill repeating wordsI am sorryPlease, forgive me
it's not the endBeautiful heart when it's beatingBut more beauty in it when it's dyingI remember you said that to meAnd I knew you weren't lyingI saw your life running to the endBut you were smiling, feeling freeYou said "Don't be afraid my friend"This side of me you will never seeYou promised to me that you will stayBut I knew it was just a beautiful lieYou already have chosen your wayNot giving me answer on my only whyPerfectly described soul painted on your wallsNot you not me, can't find way outWe only humans, manipulated just like dollsAnd we are the same, just one big crowdTime is endless but not for human beingI can see the end of you so very closeThere you go, I can feel no more heart beatingAnd no, I can't feel your pulseClosing of the eyes, last words, last smileYou're taking a last breath, my friendBut words you're saying is not good byeYou're saying to me "Death it's not the end"
Who we areReal, she is realBelieving in what I seeAmazing and closeEndless loveMy tearsYour joyMy hopeNot your toyCan't break meOnly loveSo love meAs long as I'm yoursTake it allNo need to stay alonePrecious loveCan't ignorePurest heartDarkest soulCombined in warPerfect eyesBut blind to beGreen colorBut they don't seeMarks on the handsTattoos on our heartsLovely descriptionAbout who we are