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Love=PainI don't have proper words in my mind
No proper scene in my eyes
Because love is so hard to describe
Some might say it's pure and innocent
Other says it's dark and evil
For someone it might be all the sense
And for other it might be without meaning
I don't know if I know the definition of the love
If I actually know anything at all
But I have something inside
Something what holds me in this life
Is it love?
I don't know
Maybe yes, maybe no
But as long as it makes me going
I don't really care how it's calling
I know it hurts
It causes pain
Makes me insane
Sometimes it makes me even cry
But it's worth to fight
Your love is poor if you can describe it
Cause real love strikes you as a lightning
It means all and nothing at the same time
It feels like heaven but the feeling lives inside
I said so many words right now
But still don't know what love is about
And I don't need to
All I need is to feel it
Not a writerToday I took my pencil
And started to think
Now what should I write about?
I'm sick of it
Too boring to read
I'm done with it
I lie on the floor and start to sing
Something so sad and something so sweet
No need to write it down
But nothing about
Melody is quite simple
As it comes from the heart
You might think I'm tearful
But no, I am not
Too many reasons why I'm here
Too many questions unrelieved
So many people should just leave
Away, get vanished, disappear
I'm still holding pencil in my hand
Not writing, not trying to understand
But I'm singing to feel something new
Something weird, something so good
I'm not a writer and I don't know how to write
though all my life is one big poem, one big fight
But I'm still singing
This melody in me
And it sounds so perfectly
Forgive me please
Forgive me for this
But I'm not a writer
Just one big dreamer...
Last DanceShall we dance tonight?
Shall we dance for one last time?
Can I ask you to stay with me for this song?
Let's dance this night away
I would love to dance all night long
Let's put all those feelings back in our hands
Back in some place where our love still stands
Don't kiss my tears, let them run from my face
Just keep on dancing
Dancing to the star trace
The rhythm will lead us back in time
When I was yours and you were mine
Slowly moving, slowly kissing
I can be like this forever
My heart like an old clock, still ticking
But something keeps breaking
Baby I wanna hold you in my arms
I want to see us flying back to stars
Rushing slowly we're dancing in nowhere place
Last sound of music finally had reached me
I am so empty when I'm looking on your teary face
Wish I never had chance to see how you feel
It kills me seeing like it's killing you
We finished dancing underneath the moon
So I shall say thank you
For dance, for love, for life that I can't forget
For those mistakes I do regret
YouI'm in love
So in love with you
So involved with you
I'm part of you
Part of your heart
When you said I do
I do love you
I start to live
Start to believe
I'm in love with you
My little ghost
My lie, my truth
So into you
Your smile makes me alive
Your pretty eyes
I could drown inside
Love you so much
Simply in love
Keep saying this
My heart is beating so fast
So amazingly fast
Love I love you
Cause you exist
Cause you are mine
Cause I feel this time
Paper inked with loveI used to write so many things
I used to smile, I used to sing
I used to be so very happy
I used to be
And then you trapped me
The piece of paper
On the table
A little story
Of a traitor
On the purest heart
To lie about
I was the paper
You were the words
You violate me
So I got lost
I am the memory
You are the ghost
I won't be treasuring
You inked the paper
You inked my soul
It won't get better
It won't let go
They will retell this story
The piece of paper gonna burn to ash
And we will shine in endless glory
But it will never heal this painful gash
Nothing to say... Just wanted to sayI can't explain
Why do I breathe so hard when you're next to me?
No heart but blood runs so fast in veins of mine.
You cannot see. But you do feel.
Eyes getting colder of one your touch
Though, I'm burning inside. I love you.
Shadows of our bodies hiding the pain that we gained through all of these years, I want you to love me and kiss all of my tears.
No matter how it all starts, no matter how it will end, I just want you to be around me as long as you can.
Interrupted by wind I'm flowing away, my angel, my ghost, my hopelessly endless way, you love me, you're my only key, to doors of my soul that you saved
Happiness of mine, tell me if you want me to die, or maybe I'm already dead?
Is this place a heaven in my mind?
Am I buried into the grave? Is this a sweetest ever end?
Little caged bird, that's what I am.
You're my cage. I love to be in your embrace.
Silence speaks to me so loudly I could scream, your presence tears me up, takes away my dream
Our deepest fears flows fr
Secret Boxbetrayed once, betrayed twice
betrayed so many many times
old tattoo on my shoulder
old promises mixed with old dreams
they're lying in the box right next to the door
with all stuffs of old me
old guitar and written on it old song
everything what went wrong
is lying in that box
mirror without reflection
something is still reminding me
we lost connection
how i didn't see?
roses on the snow
to winner who won the show
but not to me
i lost my battles, i lost the war
those old memories are here to kill
old tears from past are here to heal
all those things that disappeared
they're back, they've returned to me
so i'll just put them in the box
where it used to be
back to my soul...
I am sorryI am sorry
I will repeat these words thousands times
Just say you love me
And I will do anything
I am sorry
Forgive me please
I made mistakes and no chance to fix it
But your smile can heal me
If you could just say that you love me
It would change everything
I am sorry, so sorry
Can you forgive me please?
I know I don't deserve this, but still
You know I love you
Wish I could say the same that you love me
You never said I'm sorry because you haven't done anything wrong
I've destroyed our love
So I'm saying once again
I'm singing a song for you
Standing at the pouring rain
I am sorry
But nothing there I can change
So I will leave
Only paper with song and guitar will remind you
About someone who was making too many mistakes
About someone who already has gone
Still repeating words
I am sorry
Please, forgive me
I am waiting for the end just to see your face,
I'm just standing on the world to get out of space
You're the only one and your love is all I need
But you're not mine, you're just a dream
A silly dream for me
As can see you I'm going down, fall on my knees
Watching you go and melting my tears
You're passing me by saying hello
I see your eyes and can't take it no more
Please talk to me, give me some hope
I need your love I need you
I can't live anymore
Writing stupid lyrics about you..
Pointless life, without love, without true,
My eyes full of tears when I'm looking at you
You're so beautiful, you drive me insane
There is no words what I can say
I hate the love, I hate myself
Can't wait to say but I can't say
I'll give you part of me I swear
Just leave me the hope to the end of the day
almost lethalI'm drinking you like pure mercury.
On some certain days I ask myself; 'Can you really take all her words? Can you really handle all of her?', but till now, I'm not able to answer myself this simple question.
I think, I have to explain something to you (and me.)
There is this big, huge shelf full of thoughts and words and stories and memories and desperation and sadness and lives. (Most of the time, I prefer to talk about it as a shelf full of tea, but whatever it content is, it is full of you.)
I'm unable to pick a tiny box or even just a cup from there and then decide to not read it. It's simply impossible.
[To just think for myself became less favorable.]
Some of your things are delicious. Like a lovely earl grey after a long, hard day. Your words calm my soul and allay my blood. A bit of milk, two spoon full of sugar. Sometimes this is all I need.
But of course, there are also boxes with a patina of rust on it. Their labels are dirty and towelled at some spots. I can
Tears of Glassfalling
tears of glass
into a million
Lovers and AngelsI met him long ago,
And I'm just now getting to know you
I can finally talk to him
While you are still a mystery
He's opened up to me
And you have yet to confide
He says I'm his buddy
And so do you
He says he wants to see me
You say you miss me
He gives me advice with a grin
You give me a hard time and a smile
He gives me a good laugh
And so do you
He shares with me his thoughts
While yours are barred from me
He takes my hand
You take my breath away
He owns the stage
You work the room
He texts me
You see me
He wants me
You hug me again
He questions if I love him
You know I like you
He claims to speak true
But so do you
He's got a lot of girls
But do you?
I've stood by his side patiently
Just like I'll do for you
He is much like you
But you are different than him
He says he loves me
And I don't think you do
You say more of the truth
UntitledI smile when it rains,
It drives away the black passion and the scarlet pain,
Tearing up my white flesh again and again.
It's the only thing that keeps me sane,
When everything else is driving me insane.
I smile when it snows,
It covers up these ruby scars that will forever show,
Hiding silver marks on golden skin I know.
It's an antidote to this shade misery that flows,
When everyone tries to deduce my glow.
HurtIt hurts so much I cannot speak,
I think my feelings are at its peak.
I cannot feel anything right now,
I don't know why or how.
All I know is that I'm hurting,
all I know is that I feel like crying.
Everything is wrong,
why can't everyone just get along?
Now I don't know what I'm feeling,
I think a part of me is dying.
Alter EgoI have an alter ego
She likes to rhyme with me
And when she's sick of working
She makes me drink my tea
She shouts out loud, she's very proud
And goes round looking for trouble,
She digs in deep into my mind
Shifting past the rubble
Her fingers stained in ink
Her hair is all askew
Glasses that need fixing
Two colors are her shoes
I have an alter ego
She likes to write and rhyme
One look in the mirror,
And I see her all the time.
Bring ItYesterday you took my notebook,
Today you took my pen,
If tomorrow you take my thoughts,
What will I do then?
Let me be myself
I'm sick of all your rules
Without my sword and shield
How will I win my duels?
I don't hide behind my papers
I use them as my ally
If you force me to fights
I'll crush you like the last guy.
Time In Our HandsTime In Our Hands:
Like Mother Nature it is uncontrolled.
Though our lives depend on it.
Something so eternal and endless.
But our choices can come down to seconds.
Life changing events that matter.
Distance at closure.
Keep your posture.
For I will be right here.
Set like a stone.
And that mellow tone,
Coming from your voice.
Is my calling to you.
No longer feel blue.
I am always here with you.
It may not seem to work for us.
However, in the time of need.
Nothing will change our plans,
Time In Our Hands.
ThunderstormRight now it's a thunderstorm in here
All these feelings
All these images
Of all the pain
You bring nothing but despair, but pain, and misery -
Go away memories.
Why can't I leave these tormented days behind?
Forget all the wrong that's been done
Just start again
Pull myself together and believe,
That one day I'll break the chain
But most of all,
Why can't I start acting like I deserve to live
And stop letting death engulf my being
It seems nothing is ever going to get better
The rain doesn't seem like it's ever going to leave
Where's the sun gone?
Or if the sun won't return,
Why are there no kisses in the rain?
Why is there no hope, no love
No happiness left
Or even outside of me
Why is there just an empty space,
A blank page
Which will never be written in beautifully.
Only sun, Only lightOnly sun only light
Only day to the night
Way too much
Way too long
Spent all life
Way too far
Only sun only light
Only day moves to the night
Only one for only her
And all over again
Do not belong
Only sun only light
Summer to autumn
Wishing to die
Story speaks for itself
Lost endless quest
Time will never pretend
Only light goes back to the end
five.Five is the number of times you worry he’s stopped breathing, as the surgeons carve around his heart, twisting away the plaque ridden arteries, and pulling a vein out of his leg. Five is the number of heart wrenching hours you and your family were waiting in the hospital room, worried that your lives would crumble, that there would be five members of the family instead of six, that five days out of the week he would not come home for dinner, that five kisses from him would no longer be given to his wife and four children. Five was the amount of fingernails you bit off while watching people enter and exit the waiting room, and the amount of minutes your mother spent on the phone, explaining that something was wrong. Five is the critical difference between holding a father’s hand as your mother cries into his heart shaped pillow. The difference between rejoicing and smiling weakly because he’s okay or carrying your father’s American-flag-covered-casket and watchin
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