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Love=PainI don't have proper words in my mind
No proper scene in my eyes
Because love is so hard to describe
Some might say it's pure and innocent
Other says it's dark and evil
For someone it might be all the sense
And for other it might be without meaning
I don't know if I know the definition of the love
If I actually know anything at all
But I have something inside
Something what holds me in this life
Is it love?
I don't know
Maybe yes, maybe no
But as long as it makes me going
I don't really care how it's calling
I know it hurts
It causes pain
Makes me insane
Sometimes it makes me even cry
But it's worth to fight
Your love is poor if you can describe it
Cause real love strikes you as a lightning
It means all and nothing at the same time
It feels like heaven but the feeling lives inside
I said so many words right now
But still don't know what love is about
And I don't need to
All I need is to feel it
I am differentdon't ask any questions
there are no answers
you can't take away my pain
so leave it
why would you lie not seeing me
i see it
they say i'm too young to understand love
but i say love needs no understanding
they say one day I'll meet the guy who's gonna love me
but I say I don't need such love
why they don't beleive me, I'm so tired to explain
i found that one who loves me
who accept me as I am
who won't try to change me
but no one seem to hear it
judging me they feel perfect
yes but I know they're not
the fact I'm different, doesn't change who you are
but once again
people love to judge
they keep saying I'll burn in hell
because of loving you
they say I am a sinner
nature mistake, a loser
but I feel happy in my own way
i don't mind about all the hate you thrown on me
i'm happy with simple things that you can't see
but they keep talking I should start live properly
refuse from making sins, start to believe in something what they believe
but I'm chosing my way
I won't chase you anymoreLonely heart of yours has finally reached the peace, my dear friend, my lover, my dear ghost what you have done? You lost yourself bit by bit, but I'm so jealous, so jealous of you right now, how did you reached those stars, how did you lost my love inside of us, how did you vanished from my arms?
Oh Lord, give me strength not to finish this empty life like she did because I want to, I want to end it and join her somewhere where she is, no matter what the cost is I will pay just let me see her again, let me speak, just let me talk to the rain, if this is the last ever life scene, forgive me then cause I'm leaving it
Turn the clock back but time won't stop; my tears go back to my eyes, pain returns to my heart, tonight I'll find the way to make it without you, I'll try to live without crying, denying the truth, sounds will shut off for my ears, I will brake my own fears, running and falling but never stop, that's all what left to me, that's all I've got, hiding behind masks I'll
Last DanceShall we dance tonight?
Shall we dance for one last time?
Can I ask you to stay with me for this song?
Let's dance this night away
I would love to dance all night long
Let's put all those feelings back in our hands
Back in some place where our love still stands
Don't kiss my tears, let them run from my face
Just keep on dancing
Dancing to the star trace
The rhythm will lead us back in time
When I was yours and you were mine
Slowly moving, slowly kissing
I can be like this forever
My heart like an old clock, still ticking
But something keeps breaking
Baby I wanna hold you in my arms
I want to see us flying back to stars
Rushing slowly we're dancing in nowhere place
Last sound of music finally had reached me
I am so empty when I'm looking on your teary face
Wish I never had chance to see how you feel
It kills me seeing like it's killing you
We finished dancing underneath the moon
So I shall say thank you
For dance, for love, for life that I can't forget
For those mistakes I do regret
BrokenOnce I was whole now I'm broken
I need to be reborn
Don't let me go
What was broken cannot be repair
Kiss me and return my pulse again
Never let me go
Break me once more
I don't want to be your friend I want to be your lover
My heart is broken, having your name upon it
But don't let me go
Never let me go
I need to be reborn
Nothing last forever, nothing's truly perfect
But I know it's worth it
Being blind, being fooled I'm no use
Little broken loving fool
Don't let me go
Don't let go my hand
Don't try to understand
Just love me as I am
I am broken, broken till the end
MirrorsInto the mirror every night you stare
Looking for someone, someone who might care
Consciously you're praying, praying for a peace
Slowly going down, falling on your knees
Into someone's eyes you just want to look
To find something like life, to find something like truth
Every night you're crying, tears just want to fall
Every day is riot, every day is war
Talking to the mirror, talking to your soul
Everyone around you, they don't even know
Little bit of distance, little bit of faith
Just the way you miss her, she don't give damn
Mirror won't be lying, mirror says the truth
Everyone is dying, no one cares of you
People love complaining, people love to lie
People love the hating, including their own life
Strangely attracted every night you stare
Looking for somebody, somebody who might care
FakeI want to be a fake as you are
If it helps me to survive
Show off those masks
Take them down
I will be proud of my life
Living in the perfect lie
Proud for being fake
Lie to you as much as you can take
Forgive me please
I can't resist
I want to lie
I want to cheat
Then laugh into your face
You're fool, you're just an idiot
You're thought that I've forgot?
Those hurtful things you've done to me
Those painful bruises on my skin
Millions of tears from my eyes
Consequences of your stupid lies
All those nights I was crying
All those days, pretending of smiling
It's not a living, just days of poor existence
All happiness that I've been missing
Miserable and destroyed
Played and fooled like a toy
My lord, if I deserved it all
Then take away from me this love
Let me suffer to the end
But don't leave me, take my hand
Punish me for things he wants to make
I want to see how much I still can take
See what else can make me break
As long as I'm betrayed
As long as I am fake
Lost Heavensecret place
unseen for eyes
hidden from us
place without years
there are no fears
there are no tears
place without oceans and sea
nothing what you can see
for our lost souls
that's what only matter
that's all we need to know
YouI'm in love
So in love with you
So involved with you
I'm part of you
Part of your heart
When you said I do
I do love you
I start to live
Start to believe
I'm in love with you
My little ghost
My lie, my truth
So into you
Your smile makes me alive
Your pretty eyes
I could drown inside
Love you so much
Simply in love
Keep saying this
My heart is beating so fast
So amazingly fast
Love I love you
Cause you exist
Cause you are mine
Cause I feel this time
almost lethalI'm drinking you like pure mercury.
On some certain days I ask myself; 'Can you really take all her words? Can you really handle all of her?', but till now, I'm not able to answer myself this simple question.
I think, I have to explain something to you (and me.)
There is this big, huge shelf full of thoughts and words and stories and memories and desperation and sadness and lives. (Most of the time, I prefer to talk about it as a shelf full of tea, but whatever it content is, it is full of you.)
I'm unable to pick a tiny box or even just a cup from there and then decide to not read it. It's simply impossible.
[To just think for myself became less favorable.]
Some of your things are delicious. Like a lovely earl grey after a long, hard day. Your words calm my soul and allay my blood. A bit of milk, two spoon full of sugar. Sometimes this is all I need.
But of course, there are also boxes with a patina of rust on it. Their labels are dirty and towelled at some spots. I can
An ArtistIf you’re a performing artist then you’re a master of your emotions.
If you’re a visual artist then you’re a master of your creations.
If you’re a literary artist then you’re a master of words.
InvincibleThey say that I can't last much longer,
Grinning as I scream in pain
And laughing as I gasp for air.
But they won't reach their goal.
"Daddy, you'll be back, won't you?"
Her words still echo in my head,
A piece of happiness I keep within.
"Of course, my angel. Sooner than you'd think."
Darkness embraces my consciousness,
And every breath becomes a struggle,
But still I hear her worried voice.
"Promise?" she asks. "Promise." I answer.
And as I lie here on the floor,
Beaten, bloody, and alone,
I feel my heart beating in my chest,
Fighting to fulfill my promise.
"But how can you know?" she calls
As I'm halfway out the door.
I smile as I bend down to hug her.
"for you I'll be invincible."
And though my world is made of pain,
And my blood seems caught on fire,
I draw one breath after another,
And know that I'll return alive.
The love of AshterAshter's love
Like a clad of darkness
White roses burn to dust
Sorrow within my heart
Restrained sins of lust
It's tearing me apart
Blood slides down the fragile arm
Promises left for broken
Keeping one safe from harm
Hypocrisy's only token
Save me from myself
I can't take it any longer
The picture on a wooden shelf
Emotions ever so stronger
Love is a widow's song
A bird's broken wing
A mirror of all wrong
A tune she used to sing
Love is a broken vow
The tainting of all light
Accepting what is now...
Straying the path of right
Obsession like a fragile flower
A most ludicrous dream
Like building Babel tower
All is not what it seem
Pain of this love
Its lingering scorn
A gift from above?
A bond that is torn
UntitledI smile when it rains,
It drives away the black passion and the scarlet pain,
Tearing up my white flesh again and again.
It's the only thing that keeps me sane,
When everything else is driving me insane.
I smile when it snows,
It covers up these ruby scars that will forever show,
Hiding silver marks on golden skin I know.
It's an antidote to this shade misery that flows,
When everyone tries to deduce my glow.
ThunderstormRight now it's a thunderstorm in here
All these feelings
All these images
Of all the pain
You bring nothing but despair, but pain, and misery -
Go away memories.
Why can't I leave these tormented days behind?
Forget all the wrong that's been done
Just start again
Pull myself together and believe,
That one day I'll break the chain
But most of all,
Why can't I start acting like I deserve to live
And stop letting death engulf my being
It seems nothing is ever going to get better
The rain doesn't seem like it's ever going to leave
Where's the sun gone?
Or if the sun won't return,
Why are there no kisses in the rain?
Why is there no hope, no love
No happiness left
Or even outside of me
Why is there just an empty space,
A blank page
Which will never be written in beautifully.
Sleep my darling, sleep.I hope that you're sleeping darling,
I do not like you in distress.
I hope that you're sleeping darling,
I cannot stand you at ill health.
I hope that you're dreaming darling,
I cannot bear to think you're not.
I hope that you're eating darling.
I hope that you're breathing darling.
Please, tell me, you're sleeping, darling.
Till then...And the movie goes on and on
Until all my days are gone!
This story shall prove to have no end
No more lies left to pretend.
Nights will watch the poet's hands
Writing down this will of light,
Drowning into poisoned sands,
Spitting fire, fear and might.
Days will wander all alone
Kissing joy, walking in time.
Hearts will melt then turn to stone
And I'll be waiting for a sign
Long lost life I'll rediscover.
I will smell and taste its breath.
Dead to my bones, to demon's fever
Lost along this ancient path
Insane no more I live my life
And time's just going on and on
I will win it strife by strife
Until all my days are gone!
What I feelI am nothing because of you
You've caused me to hate myself
The things you've made me feel...hurt
When you touch me I feel worse
Like your cheap whore
I feel filthy....unloved
Every time I think of you I cry
You see beautiful memories
I see pain and sick pervert
I want you to feel what I do
I wish you could experience the pain I have
I want you to experience what I have
Lets see how much of a man you are then
Only sun, Only lightOnly sun only light
Only day to the night
Way too much
Way too long
Spent all life
Way too far
Only sun only light
Only day moves to the night
Only one for only her
And all over again
Do not belong
Only sun only light
Summer to autumn
Wishing to die
Story speaks for itself
Lost endless quest
Time will never pretend
Only light goes back to the end
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