It doesn't matterIt doesn't matterThe rhyme, the wordsThe meaningIt doesn't really matterActually, nothing mattersNot anymoreNot pain, not joy, not even the bottle dulling this voidNothing mattersNothing at allI tried to explainTried to find wordsBut I failedMiserablyBecause you can't possibly fill a hole with words, you can't cover the pain with sweet soothing words, you just can't replace feelings with meaningless words. You just can't.But I tried anyway.And this is me trying again.Playing with pain.Playing with heart and my soulAnd it's alright. Until it's not.I wrote so many thingsRhyming my life into a poemTrying to make it dramatically foreignBroken hearted in all its gloryBut where do I start?Where to begin?Why this feels wrong?Why so much pain?And I can'tI can't fill you with wordsI can't bring back the lifeI can't write a new worldCan't say my good byesOnce I said I am not a writerThat I am only being a dreamerAnd I believed myselfI took a c
FeelingHeart abductedSoul's missingEyes are cryingLips are kissingMagic touchesGentle whispersSouls matchingLives twistingOnce upon relivingLong forgotten feelingFeeling that was healingEvery human being
Happy EndingFucked up lifeBut still perfectIdeal to no endCocaine is the friendI laugh while cryingIt's satisfyingMesmerizing No more lyingBut keep drinkingScotch and whiskeyEnding swiftlyIt's alrightI live one lifeBottle in my handI'm getting bolderI cry on the stranger's shoulderHe doesn't mind when I ask him to hold meIt's alrightI cut those veinsI scream while laughingNo nights or daysI'm so done fightingPeople smilePeople lovePeople lieAnd there we goSmile againand love againand lie againagain and againand over againto no end.I don't like thisI don't want you anymoreYou suffocate mePlease let me goJust let go of my wristPlease, I need thisIf this is the last thing I ever feelthen so be itI want this to overtake meto embrace meand finally break meSo let me end thisand please pretend itpretend like I deserved my happy ending
Haunted loveNot enough soundNot enough loudI still can hear your screamsI still can taste your tearsOn my lipsBittersweet...I still can feel your fearsPulsating inside meI can sense your darknessLurking behind meYou won't let goChasing and punishing me...Your shadow surrounds me like a black haloSqueezing my heart, I can feel it failing....Suffocating in your darkness, drowning in your fears,My broken heart can't take it, slowly betraying me....Your pained expression haunts my every dream,and because of you my life became surrealI hate you for chasing me, breaking me and not letting me go...I can't do it anymore, I'm begging you, let me move onI used to love you with my heart and my soulbut there is nothing left to love....and I'm begging you.....Please....Let me go....